Sunday, 19 October 2014

It's Been Awhile

Hello all!

It's been awhile since I posted from the good old USA. I forget how busy a summer is with 4 children at home! Please forgive me for being absent, but let me fill everyone on whats been happening:

Summer was a whirlwind to say the least. There was a lot of time spent at the beach, where I am lucky enough to live. We got into a nice routine with that, although I feel like I ran a marathon by the time I actually set foot on sand!

A typical July 4th holiday photo with Grayson

There were a lot of changes these past few months too. My husband Danny has been working more, so my hours dispatching (3 days a week, at 13 hours a day) had to be put to an end. I had mixed feelings about this. I loved the fact that now I would see my kids more, and be more involved (since I never saw them those days), but I hated the fact that I would not be able to see my friends on those days. I know that sounds selfish, but mom's need a break, and that was my break, as crazy as that is. Plus I don't have a ton of people I can call friends, so this bothered me a bit.

This summer wiped me out, just like him
Another good thing was that I could now focus on my photography and really get my business running. I must say, now that I have devoted more time to this, I have been getting a lot more sessions, and have been able to really hone my craft. I am really impressed at some of the photos I come up with it.

Sydney and Grayson's first race
I also have been able to really get into my running again. I ran multiple races this season, signed up for even more, and got my 2 youngest kids into it. I know come close to running 5 miles every other day. This has been such an outlet for stress, but also a way to keep my depression at bay, since I have been really fighting it lately. (In fact, as I write this, I guess I am having an "off" day, since I kind of feel sad). I hate admitting that I am depressed, or that I have been fighting depression. I feel like people think that I have such a great life, and that I shouldn't be sad, and sometimes I get mad at myself, since I think that should be true. However, things aren't what they seem, and its something I just "feel". I have fought it for so long, that there are times I don't even remember what its like to not fight this demon inside of me. I know running and photography keeps that monster away, so I have to keep going with that. Plus my kids, when they aren't trying to kill each other helps out a lot too.
Sibling love, at its rarest

There have been a lot of stresses that I am dying to talk about, because I wonder if anyone can relate. I will definitely talk about that soon, as long as you'll still have me. For now, before I go off on a tangent, I will leave things here. It sounds like I have to break up a fight downstairs :)

xoxo
Clarissa





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